I Wish I Had a Love..

So today i have to go to my moms office and sit there for 5 hours and do absolutely nothing which totaly stinks... yesterday was ok, nik came over in the morning and suprised me and then we talked on the phone all day.. so pretty much yesterday for the second time in my life i made fried cheese.. last time i did that i got in sooo much trouble cause i hella burned it. Nik made me the coolest cd cover ever and now he wants me to make him one... srry no can do my computer is lame...


on the other note my sister is driving me crazy... she is always calling me names.. there awas these girls at one of our swim meets once and they sound just like me and my sister. one of the girls was like shut up fatty and the other one is like im not fat look who's talking.. it was soooo funny you have no idea....and yesterday at swim practice she kept taking the bracelet that nik made me and was throwing it all over the pool.. and im sad now cause i just realized that coach nick still has my bracelet! crap now im oober mad... im going to go cut myself now.. and im serious this time!

well i havent been on this in a long time.. there really hasnt been many new things going on, just sports and drama and nik.. my birthday is in 19 days... which means that nik is going to make me breakfast... well yea nothing new... nik likes me and i like him but well never get together cause that always happens... he has these cards and it tells our future and i think its going to really happen... so yea he know what im talking about but nik how do you feel?

Ok well this week has been tiring..And stressful,Im trying to figure out what to do with my life...ok well i read Nik's LJ and im confused...I dont know what to do anymore..I told him that I juat wanted to be friens but I think that he wants more than that,I dont want a boyfriend right now..Im really sore because i had swim practice and I got a charlie horse in both legs at the same time...wellthats all for now..pace

Ok so today was really boring..I am in so much pain right now because I had morning practice for my swim team..ok so now im playing pool with Nik and he wnated me to update this....I read his friends only post and I told him how i felt..i would rather be a friends with benifits type of person that way we stay good friends..Yesterday i was so mad....I didnt get anything for Valentines Day...I was sad.. But hey im just not thoiught of by a lot of people..I wish that i had a bf really bad...but i think that being single is a good thing for now..(think)..well thats all for now..peace

Well today was pretty much boring..i didnt really do anyhting.. i painted something for my brother and i just hung out around the house..i wish i was with Nik right now.. we would be watching Campus Ladies right now.. I dont know what im going to be doing tomarrow but im just going to have fun... well i just had dinner and now im really really full...my parents are watching Barber Shop downstairs so im just writing about how my day went...O yea.. on Tuesday its Valentines Day..I dont have a Valentine..O well maybe next year..Well i am going to watch the Olympics so ill write more later...